out burst |Tuesday, March 07, 2006
today i went to sp np and nyp to appeal for a course ... i realize that i cant get into any of the sp courses ... sobx ... not a good experience going around like a begger looking for other ppl's left over vacency ...
some stress was relived when i went to appeal for course as i feel that there is still hope for me ... then i went to jp to meet my mum and sis ... then went home ...
came home and saw a grumpy father ... then i wanted to help out with the dishes ... then comes dad ...
me: i help u cook ...
dad: no need ...
me: i help u lar u go do ur staff ...
dad: cannot study do these got what use ...
anger filled my brain then followed my pain filling my heart ... i am already stressed enough and he have to say such things ... i went to lie on the bed ... thinking about the words he said ...
i wantd to think that he spilt it out due to anger but the more u think the more tear fill my eyes and finally i started crying ...
i tried to stop but the tear flow faster when i continue to think ... the think that make me stop is that i dont wan my family know so i stopped but the tap just wont shup tight enough ... tears tried to flow out when i was half way through my dinner but i kept it in ...
what a day ...
come back soon.
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