finally |Sunday, March 19, 2006
went service ot the church with nesa ... with tiangsheng derrick and chongyee ... we went to eat kfc then go church ...
i kind of feel uncomfortable there couse it was my first visit and i am not a cristian ... the only think that will make me wan to go back will be the group and the ppl ... they were friendly and very nice ...
finally i got a reply from nyp that my appeal is successfull ... yah ... this poly thing had couse many trouble for me ... fainally it can come to an end ... i am very happy
but the sad things are i got angry with terrance for keep taking about me going back to blss which i really dont like and dont wan it to happen even after i ask him to stop for afew times ... this is not the first time he talks about it ... i am sick of him talking all those things that are already stressing me ...
i raised my voice at my dad yesterday couse i got upset my a letter from sp telling me that i cannot get into it ...
dad: y cannot go in ... u never tell the mp that u also wan to go np meh
me: i got say ... i say everything ... i say any school also can but sp ans np will be better !!!
dad: so loud for what wan to beat me ar
me : i am very worried liao lar !!! not only u worried u know !!! i am the one with no school to go to now leh !!!
then i went into my room again ... means cry again lor :( ... this poly thing made me cried for 2 times liao ... but the second time is not totally that i cried cause i cannot get in to a course ... is because i raised my voice at my father ... i regreted that action ... i yelled at someone who is as concent as me that i cannot get in to and course ... what have i done ... sorry is such a simple word but its hard to say to ur family members ... it wont come out of my mouth ...
but i think my dad understands my feelings and the difficulties i am going through ... things went back to normal ... even without the magic word ....
thx dad for being so understanding ... :')
come back soon.
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