went for the check up for poly today and went to pay the fee ... then went to jp meet mum for kfc ... that what i did today ... to poly thing settle liao ... have to send the enrolment package tml ...

1 paragraph can say finish liao ... haiz ... what a boring day ...

birthday coming ... thinkinf of where to go to play :D when i told my mum she say me only thinking of play ... poly wan start liao ma so play lor ...

then my mum take my handphone then any how press then go and call kelvin ... then he call back then we chat for a while ... quite good and he is still as funny as ever :D

a short day |Thursday, March 23, 2006

went to suntec to find yongpeng with derrick and cheesheng ... i wan to go city hall buy thing de then sun bian go find peng ... then we eat kfc with him ...

we meet cheesheng at his house de bus stop cause i go centre see some thing then cheesheng msg me ... can help me buy sugar cane juice ... then i say 1 cup $2 ... then he reply i wan add lemon... i tot he really wan 1 cup $2 then at the end he only give me $1.20 ... sian leh ... still have to wait for him to off work then so late liao lor ...

we reach there at about 3 15 liao ... took so long to get there ... then eat kfc liao yp faster run to the arcade to play rock fever ... then he play normal ... we all dunno how to play then we 3ppl play 1 side then yp play 1 side ... then we still lose to him leh ... diu lian leh ... hehe ...

then yp late liao then he faster run back to work again ... we see so late liao then nv go back with him then we goo buy my thing ... buy liao jiu go home liao ... then we 3 walk home ...

then i faster try the guitar tuner i just bought ... guess what ... I DONT KNOW HOW TO USE ... haha ... tune till the guitar dunno what sound ... then after dinner i slowly try then finally got a tuned guitar :D ...

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11:28 PM

finally |Sunday, March 19, 2006

went service ot the church with nesa ... with tiangsheng derrick and chongyee ... we went to eat kfc then go church ...

i kind of feel uncomfortable there couse it was my first visit and i am not a cristian ... the only think that will make me wan to go back will be the group and the ppl ... they were friendly and very nice ...

finally i got a reply from nyp that my appeal is successfull ... yah ... this poly thing had couse many trouble for me ... fainally it can come to an end ... i am very happy

but the sad things are i got angry with terrance for keep taking about me going back to blss which i really dont like and dont wan it to happen even after i ask him to stop for afew times ... this is not the first time he talks about it ... i am sick of him talking all those things that are already stressing me ...

i raised my voice at my dad yesterday couse i got upset my a letter from sp telling me that i cannot get into it ...
dad: y cannot go in ... u never tell the mp that u also wan to go np meh
me: i got say ... i say everything ... i say any school also can but sp ans np will be better !!!
dad: so loud for what wan to beat me ar
me : i am very worried liao lar !!! not only u worried u know !!! i am the one with no school to go to now leh !!!

then i went into my room again ... means cry again lor :( ... this poly thing made me cried for 2 times liao ... but the second time is not totally that i cried cause i cannot get in to a course ... is because i raised my voice at my father ... i regreted that action ... i yelled at someone who is as concent as me that i cannot get in to and course ... what have i done ... sorry is such a simple word but its hard to say to ur family members ... it wont come out of my mouth ...

but i think my dad understands my feelings and the difficulties i am going through ... things went back to normal ... even without the magic word ....

thx dad for being so understanding ... :')

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12:15 AM

what happen |Friday, March 17, 2006

y i cannot see my blog

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6:46 PM

first k box this year ... |Monday, March 13, 2006

went k box with terrance yanting and jos today ... too bad siling cannot go ... sad :(

we meet 1pm at bl control station then yanting ride turtle like that so slow ... then we wait for her ... then go je ... then wait for 2pm at the ice skate there ... the place was like flooded with so many ppl ... lucky we nv go ice skate ... see so many ppl laso sian liao how to skate ...

we sing ans sing then yanting go and pick qi shi jing shen by jolin ... then she nv sing leh ... only me sing ... also dunno how to sing ... then sing half way skip lor ...

then that 2 pig yanting and terrance go and skip my song SOBX... make me no mood to sing liao ... then terrance leave to play mahjong with wei lun they all i also dunno who ... then he left early ... then later jos need to leave early too then we all left the place at 6pm ... sing till not very shuang leh ...

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10:49 PM

friendship ???? |Friday, March 10, 2006

today i realize something ... friendship < money and ourself

i think that is true that everyone will care about themselves b4 others except for parents who will think of their children b4 them ...
i still wan to believe that there are friends who will think of u first ... althought i haven meet 1 ...

i need to say sorry to terrence for saying things like this but i just haven feel that kind of friendship between us ... even after treating u ask my best friend ...

my mood was swinging left to right and up to down but i cant find someone to talk to and still feel comforetable ... the truth is the first name to come to my mind is vanessa ... but i feel we are drifting apart and that we are ppl from 2 different world now ...

second name that came to my mind is huiwen ... but i think she is more concent with her 4/4 and her old friends ... so nvm ...

sad to say terrence , my best friend came in third ... haiz ...

nvm i think sleep then tml wake up will feel better de ...

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11:52 PM

out burst |Tuesday, March 07, 2006

today i went to sp np and nyp to appeal for a course ... i realize that i cant get into any of the sp courses ... sobx ... not a good experience going around like a begger looking for other ppl's left over vacency ...

some stress was relived when i went to appeal for course as i feel that there is still hope for me ... then i went to jp to meet my mum and sis ... then went home ...

came home and saw a grumpy father ... then i wanted to help out with the dishes ... then comes dad ...

me: i help u cook ...
dad: no need ...
me: i help u lar u go do ur staff ...
dad: cannot study do these got what use ...

anger filled my brain then followed my pain filling my heart ... i am already stressed enough and he have to say such things ... i went to lie on the bed ... thinking about the words he said ...

i wantd to think that he spilt it out due to anger but the more u think the more tear fill my eyes and finally i started crying ...

i tried to stop but the tear flow faster when i continue to think ... the think that make me stop is that i dont wan my family know so i stopped but the tap just wont shup tight enough ... tears tried to flow out when i was half way through my dinner but i kept it in ...

what a day ...

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haven been so stress for a very long time liao |Sunday, March 05, 2006

i am so stressed up about the poly courses ... i was not prepared not getting into any of the 12 choices i took so much time to choose ...

i feel so helpless ... told my parents how stress i am but the same answer which i do not wan to hear came out of both their mouth ... "b4 exam ask u study dont wan lar now then like that "

i am so sick of this answer ... feeling helpless and i turn to them i expect answer like "dont worry u will get in to a course ... we will try to help u "

i just need these simple words to feel the warmth and get rid of the stress in me ... but the answer was expected anyway ... that is how my parents are ...

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10:11 PM