i feel so dumb |Wednesday, January 13, 2010


sometimes i feel i am really dumb and stupid ... i do things when i know that i will never get the same in return ... but i just keep trying ... dunno y ....

guess i really wan to have ppl do the same ... but it will never happen .........



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unwillingness for work |Tuesday, January 05, 2010


started my army job as a clerk at tengah airbase ... ppl there are ok accept my upper study ... he is a shitty person ....

had mc for the pass 2 days due to fever ... got to go back tml but due to that shitty upper study i dont look forward to go back at all ... first time feeling so unwilling to go work ...

lucky he going ORD next tuesday ...

he is dam irritating ... told him that i am on mc he just keep asking when i go back he have alot of things to handover to me ... he was the one who took 2 days of mc last week and let me there learning nth ... he is entited to his leave and i am also entited to my MC ... does it seem fair to me ????? he took leave to go enjoy and relax ... i took MC cause i have a fever and need to rest ... really an ass ....

he keep wanting to pass everything which he accumulate over 2 years to me in a week ... is this fair to me again ???



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when u ......... |Saturday, December 19, 2009


when u fuking try your best not to let ppl down .....

what do you get in return ??????


when u fuking try your best to be there when ppl need you .........

who is there when u need someone ?????????


when u fuking try your best to make others feel better ........

who is there to make u feel better ?????



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fairytales ??? |Saturday, October 10, 2009


seeing so many hard earn relationships be so so xin ku got me thinking ... y ppl just dont treasure the hard earn thing ... i mean if u went through so much to get it y wan to make it so hard to continue .... bossy ... not being understanding ... all these are really bad for a relationship ... u like that person who they are ... rite ????

got me thinking also ... does lasting, happy, fairytale like relationships exist ??? well i guess i wont know .... maybe i will find out when the time comes ......



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another sleepless night |Saturday, September 26, 2009


so many month since i updated ... dont really have to mood to update ... today suddenly feel like upating so here i am ...

many many things happen but i cant write every single thing down lar ... i tiny brain also dunno can remember everything ...

my mood now: sian added with a little bit of emoness

i dunno how to start ... something have been in my mind for this pass few weeks i think ... am i a failure living my life ?

friends are very important to me ... whenever i see 2 friends getting really close, a question will come to my mind ... do i have such a friend as well ? the feeling in me tells me that i dont ... i dont know wad others are thinking but i just have this feeling that i dont have ... this will make me very very up sad ... friends which shares everything ... not item wise but feelings all those ... friends which will know how u feel just by listening to the way u talk ...

i really wan to highlight this ... i have superb friends now ... love u guys :) ... is just that i have something in my mind as a compare so all these questions are coming to my mind ...

mood after writing this pose: sian will alot of emoness ...



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Graduate Liao |Friday, May 29, 2009


today is my graduation ceremony ... nth much to tell so lets just enjoy the pictures ...



this is the bear my mummy got it for me at the graduation ... nice rite haha

mummy me and sis ...

gary lao da and me


thats all .... happy graduation everyone :D ...




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late blogging :p |Sunday, May 24, 2009


well last sat went zouk with yanting they all to celebrate yanting de birthday :D ... it was 1 week ago lar but i so lazy to blog so untill today then together blog lor ... nth much to say so put some pictures let u all see see ...

picture with ghim hong ... see he smlie till like that ... take with siling they all where got like that ... lol ...


picture with jinghong ... i think this is the first time i take picture with him ba ...


the zhu jiao of the day ... so many hands but non is her's ... lol ...


a picture with the zhu jiao ... hehe ...

all smlie :D


then sunday went to cini with my poly gang gary, jasmine, vik, jimmy, xinyi, jingyong, shir ... chou vincent PS us again ... haiz ... had hongkong cafe for dinner and watch angel and demons ... during firstt part of the movie i fell asleep ... yes fell asleep cause the night b4 go zouk never sleep properly ma but at the end very exciting so wake up see see dont waste money lol ...


went walk walk with mummy at jp de fair price then i bought a kinda joy try try see wad is it like ... so this is the toy i got ... hahaha ...




sharky ....

then today 23rd went to meet with wei lun they all ... have dinner and chat chat awhile then go home le ... nice to see them after quite some time ... chou vincent PS us again ... haiz ... saw Dai Yang Tian at raffles city today .... he was with a new artist also but i forgot his name ... we met at time toilet haha ... he seem thinner compare to him on tv ... maybe tv really make u look fatter :D ...




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